That's what it feels like! Note to self- do not try to quit smoking when you are PMS,ing. Another note to self, it don't matter 'cause stopping smoking takes several months and you will PMS at least three times.
NO, I haven't had a cigarette. I have just wanted one really bad the last few days.
I went shopping tonight. I had to. My family was going to get killed and I was going to land in jail if I didn't. On my list to do was:
Office Depot- get filler calendar for OLD demo planner because the calendar notebook (Barnes and Noble) that I usually get is not available this year. Note to self: I have had this B&N Calendar for the last four years- it is my office/studio bible- it is not available this year (maybe sold out?) What will I do? I have kept all the previous ones as a journal to my life. Now, it is fillers for my demo planner. Life is changing really quick right before my eyes. I need a cigarette and I actually pray on my way to Office Depot.
PetSmart-get the Chondroitin-Glucosamine stuff for the 14 year old dog who is doing so well (I love you, Baby Einstein!) and the stop shedding stuff for both dogs. Look very seriously for stop smoking stuff at PetSmart but they don't have it. WTH? I'd still hawk a ride with a stranger and steal one of his smokes at this point. Prayed more.
Home Depot- am re-doing the PageStudio- will send pics. when it is done- if I feel like it and I DON'T want a cig. at the time. Got several more shelves to put up in the studio- of course, my leetle friend told me that they all look crappy and I should stop at the convenience store to drown out my shelf sorrows with ciggies.
I told my leetle friend to SHADDUP!
Then I prayed again.
Oh yeah- I made it home. I thank God that I live in the country and I can be a hermit.
Lord knows what will happen in the next few days when I have to go into town and get some milk.
Smoke something for me, will you? Even if it is a toothpick (yeah, I seriously thought about that one). Light a fire, a candle or have a weinie roast, I don't care- just let me breathe the smoke!
Anyways, I seriously love each and every one of you who have encouraged me. I KNOW you are behind me and that you will tell on me if you see me steal a smoke- I love you.
Part III of Old DSP coming soon- don't miss it! Stay cool, stampers ( and let's NOT get lung cancer, O.K.?)!
Lisa
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8 comments:
I will make some tea and think of you when I see the steam!!
Hang in there girl - it's worth it.
You rock Lisa well done! On March 10th it will be a year for me! Its worth every agonising minute!
Hang in there Lisa! You can do it!
Quoting almost every Adam Sandler movie "You can do it!"
hang in there - it will get easier!
Keep up the good work!! I will say that you are a FUNNY person doped up and not smoking!!! You are a better then a White Russian- not really but since I have to go back out to church tonight, you'll have to do!!!! It could be worse!!!!!
LISA:
STAY STRONG YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!
Sorry I have been MIA for so long.... glad to be back to the blogs!!!!
Hang in there. You are doing a great thing! I quit drinking coke's 3 weeks ago and I feel your pain. :)
hey girl! hope it's going well still!
i'm proud of you for tackling that!
does the stop shedding stuff really work? 'cuz my 3 dogs are the WORST shedders!
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